Going back to your roots usually brings with a certain amount of feel-good and a sense of belonging to a place.
I went back to my native place Kochi after a while. And though I did feel good in the warm company of affectionate relatives and caring folks, I somehow felt a disconnect between my roots and what I had become.
Maybe education is a bad thing.
Cuz it takes you away from the beliefs that have been blindly and fanatically followed over the years.
Technically, I belong to this community called Goud/Gowda Saraswat Brahmins.
To cut a long story short, centuries ago, my ancestors were apes.
Then many years later, they became the nomadic Aryans who worshipped natural elements (Fire, Water, Wind etc) as recorded in the Vedas.
Many more years later, they settled on the banks of the now extinct Saraswati river and were called Saraswat Brahmins. This was the era when kings ruled and sadhus smoked up some good stuff to come up with what is today called Indian Mythology. Superhero Gods were thus born as their writers with a fertile imagination fuelled by ganja, to get into the good books of their kings, endowed them with supernatural powers, more like how director Suresh Krissna gave some gravity defying stunts to Thalaivar Superstar Rajnikant in ‘Baasha’ and ‘Baba.’
Many more years later, some of them who lived in the state of Goud wanted their own identity and called themselves Goud Saraswath Brahmins. The nomads they are, some of them reached Goa and during the Portuguese invasion when they were being forced to convert to Christanity, they fled further south. Thus, the entire Western belt was called the Konkan coast cuz of the scattered settlement of Konkani speaking people in Mangalore and surrounding Kanara districts to Kochi. Some of them went up North and scattered around Maharashtra. This was when they to compete with their Dravidian counterparts started building temples and worshipped stone idols, something which their Aryan ancestors were strictly against. The literature available to them, told them about Gods with fancy names and superpowers. These images and artist’s impressions of Gods gave these people adequate scope to create idols. The Dravidians of course had giant sized idols in their village… the Ayyanar, that they turned to for protecting their village. To paint these Dravidian Gods as evil, some Brahmin artistes used that imagery to represent evil Rakshasas in their temples. As the rivalry grew, there were cultural exchanges as they got into a game of one-upmanship!
Many more years later, further subsects where born in the already fragmented Goud-Saraswath-Brahmins-settled-around-the-Konkan-coast. Then, they were divided on the basis of region… Kochi and Mangalore and further by the religious heads or spiritual gurus they turned to.
So my folks in Kochi are the ones who follow a particular guru, someone the majority of the entire community hero-worships. They have a trust in his name and the Tirumala Devaswom temple in Kochi run by that trust is one of the biggest temples and the hub of religious activity in Kochi.
I have gone there over years. In fact, my sacred thread ceremony was there too. But those were days, when I blindly followed the rituals.
Today, as someone blessed with knowledge of history and science, I know about the influences over the years in defining what is today considered as culture. I understand the need to demystify myths. As a journalist, I have been always fascinated to go in search of truth and to question practices and rituals that do not make sense.
This time when I went there, I saw something I had never questioned. Even in this day and age, the entry into the temple’s sanctum sanctorum is restricted to “pure Brahmins.” To ensure that, only Brahmins displaying their sacred threads are let in. My uncle proudly told me it was to conserve the sanctity of our temple.
He went on to tell me stories about the revered Swami. I’ll just narrate one of these stories.
A senior Christian leader once sought an appointment with the Swami. He’s said to have initially agreed. And when the date came closer, he called it off. Reason? “What happens if I reach first and he comes late? It will be reported as “Swami waited for Father to arrive.” And what happens if I go late? It will be reported as “Swami went to meet Father.” Both of which, I’m not comfortable with.”
Well… I wouldn’t be exactly proud of this sort of a religious head. He gave me another anecdote about the Swami similarly not showing up for a screening of Adi Sankaracharya because the ideology was very different.
I for one do not understand this. Religions are supposed to bring people together, not divide them.
Like our Prez said once: Religions are like islands. Unless bridges are built between them, people are going to stay marooned in their own worlds believing that their island is the world. I think religions are just a way of life … like food, like clothes.
If we have the freedom to choose what food to eat and what to wear, shouldn’t we broaden our minds to choose what to take from what religion and help ourselves to our own food for thought?
“shouldn’t we broaden our minds to choose what to take from what religion and help ourselves to our own food for thought?” – couldn’t agree more.
I’ve found similar signs at quite a few temples which is quite pathetic, especially in this time and age. Adds to the “disconnect”ion.
GSB here too !!! YAY !! same pinch !
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Sudhish,
All those religions talks are totally true. And it was pretty novel how you traced your roots:)
But these Aryan theory is disputed so much these days, it was surprising that you were not aware of them and used them in your blog.
It was as if we are no different from our ancestors and blindly beleive what we are taught in our text books:)
Ofcourse what happened 1500 years ago does not matter to me as much as what is happening now.
Anukrish
musafir,
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i was quite disillusioned… more like an anti-thesis of Swades. I dont wanna return there!
ritzkini:
well, im not sure if its anything to be proud of! if we are gonna be so prejudiced and closed to the rest of the world!
anukrish:
the aryan theory does not matter, if they were not called aryans, they were called something else. big deal. 🙂
It DOES matter cuz until u go back to ur roots, u will never know how similar u were to anybody else in this world!
like i said, our ancestors were all apes! 🙂
and what exactly do u mean when u say “all those religions talk is true”?
Sudhish
Awesome post. Reminded me of *Imagine* by John Lennon.
Sudhish,
I landed on your page a couple months back and I keep coming in often. Am not a blogger and haven’t caught on to the bug as yet.
Suffice it to say, I agree with your post. Completely. I did not get a chance to trace back to my roots(in Thanjavur) the way you have done.
But, I did have a lot of my community seniors proudly narrate tales about how some ancestors of ours made major decisions about their lives based on really stupid reasons.
Now thats a similarity a lot of Indians would share. That’s what let the British dominate India in the first place. The britishers found a land that was at once Rich and “lootable” and was uniformly stupid in it’s priorties !!
Cheers,
B.
hey sud.. me thought dat u were an authority on ciema n fashion, but culture…hmm… great da.. oh kochi(ernakulam) is ur native hmm… its 2 hours from where i am now – kottayam…i was there last weekend…the marine drive there is super romantic…been there? Srinivas.
“…Even in this day and age, the entry into the temple’s sanctum sanctorum is restricted to “pure Brahmins.” To ensure that, only Brahmins displaying their sacred threads are let in….”
It has no legal validity. But then, who is prepared to question.
somebody rightly called visitors of your blog sycophants. not a single person oppose whatever you write. they just go on singing praises of your writing. guess all are either from chennai or TN and most of them are personally known to you. i just found one or two of the posts worth any praise. rest is totally trash.
VEE
sudarshan:
Nice song man! 🙂
thats idealism but i’m just talking of what is very possible… dont we all choose food and clothes to our taste…then why not religion…its just a way of life!
B:
i think its a common story with a lot of us.
The elders just think its a generation gap! but that’s an understatement!
cheers!
srinivas:
yes dude…
i love the monsoons. always loved the rains when i was in manipal. so much that they came visiting when we organised our communication fest Article 19… ha ha!
and yeah the marine drive is damn cool! 🙂
hope u’re doing well out there!
Cheers man!
arun:
the point is not about legal validity… its about a mindset and attitude.
but legally, they probably wud get away cuz they let people inside the temple…they just dont let people with trousers and shirts inside the sanctum sanctorum…
if our night clubs today have dress codes and reserve rights of admissions, im sure they cud say the same! 🙂
plus no one wud dare question cuz they know the case is weak in a country dominated by Hindus and one that is sensitive to religious sentiments!
“This was the era when kings ruled and sadhus smoked up some good stuff to come up with what is today called Indian Mythology. Superhero Gods were thus born as their writers with a fertile imagination fuelled by ganja, to get into the good books of their kings, endowed them with supernatural powers, more like how director Suresh….”
Very Very Neatly said Suderman….
Cracked up in the middle of work after reading these lines! \m/
VEE:
alritey sire! and thanks for coming back to read the trash!
im touched that great souls like u find this place worthy of ur footsteps!
And i hope u remain grateful to the net for giving u the veil of anonymity that does not show us your butt ugly face.
ha ha!
Lord McCauley in his speech of Feb 2, 1835, British Parliament
“I have travelled across the length and breadth of India and I have not
seen one person who is a beggar, who is a thief. Such wealth I have seen
in this country, such high moral values, people of such calibre, that I
do not think we would ever conquer this country, unless we break the
very backbone of this nation, which is her spiritual and cultural
heritage, and, therefore, I propose that we replace her old and ancient
education system, her culture, for if the Indians think that all that is
foreign and English is good and greater than their own, they will lose
their self-esteem, their native self-culture and they will become what
we want them, a truly dominated nation”.
In response to the above comment,
Lord Labakdas says:
Lets roast ur wife on ur funeral pyre according to India’s cultural heritage …. Saavu da naaye! (Translated: Die bitch die)
It’s not necessary that what has been followed over the years is right.
Nor is it necessary that the Brit was accurate in his understanding. We’ve had thieves, rapists (marital rape especially), polygamy, polyandry, child abuse, child marriage, dowry, sati and assorted chauvinistic practices followed over centuries… if you wanna be proud of this cultural heritage … die bitch die!
I had ^C-ed the exact same text that darkmatter has reproduced in his comment…
Maan… I was literally rolling with laughter… :-))
We desis constantly pride ourselves in being such “culture vultures”. Preying on ancient cultures that are better off dead. And then, basking in the after-glory of what a great people we are.
Very well said, Sudhish. Like everyone else’s grandpop, our grandpops evolved from the apes. And then, somewhere down the line the culture thing corrupted them.
To be correct, “Culture” is a pattern of expression of a specific group of people with respect to the environment/population and other factors during the period of their existence.
Indians, much like any others with the conservative disease in any other part of the world are bent upon taking us back in time when Eve supposedly got an incestuos thing going with Adam after eating a dumb apple.
Point being, when people realize the ultimate truth, Darwinism will be the only surviving religion on this sweet planet that makes any sense to anybody at all.
Will we be able to witness that in our lifetime?
Not until we can stay alive for the next 500 years or more !!!
And if another bored moron roaming on some desert on a camelback decides to write a rulebook of existence for nomads and ends up creating another new religion, multiply that 500 by infinity !!
Cheers,
B.
Hey Sudish,
What you have stated in your post is very true, but how long will these things be just stated and spoken about, its high time things start happening. This you and me jus cannot do… I guess a lot of people have to realise this! Hope they do…
By the way, your roots are from Kochi? Cool, i am from kochi too.. But i am quite sure u aint from Kochi proper, where in kochi is your hometown? Tell me that tongue twisting name, am sure i’ll recognise it 🙂
maharajan:
thanks pa! 🙂
B:
>>”Culture” is a pattern of expression of a specific group of people with respect to the environment/population and other factors during the period of their existence.<< extremely well said!! 🙂
Johnny:
Im not sure if you know this place called Pandikudi in Kochi… my ancestral home is right there bang opposite to the bus stop… The Pandikudi bus stop is on the way to Fort Kochi beach and is probably a coupla kilometres away from Mattanchery and one of the world’s oldest synagogue and a stone throw away from Koovapaadam!
The entire area is dominated by Konkani speaking people and the temple, the hub of all activity is right in the centre. Ask people abt the GSB temple and they ll tell u… its among the largest temples in Kerala. Do u know the area im talking abt? Else u probably talking abt the other side of Ernakulam as Kochi!
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I wonder how much of this tracing- the-roots story is true-not that it matters to you. Lot of communities/sects try to claim a direct descendant relationship to vedas/older civilizations/bible or anything which is perceived as the origin of human kind. Nevertheless origin of man kind is truly fascinating.
can i say something? maybe partly off track to this blog..
racism exists in every culture..don’t the europeans have it? the americans? it is a human trait..”i m superior than you because at some point in time i ruled over you”..or some shit like that..it’s not just indians who do that..we ought to be ashamed of it!! no doubt abt it!
but that doesn’t mean we have to disown everything that our ancestors gave us..or call everything crap…this is what makes indians different from other cultures..
we seem to have strange ability to say everything is wrong just because some things were wrong or make fun and rationalize by saying things like ‘we should just pick good things from all cultures’.. “i don’t believe in all this…” not that there is anything wrong with that from a personal point of view..but as a nation if we have to improve/develop we have to be proud of our culture (and yes we also have to be ashamed of wrong aspects of it)
we have become ashamed of ourselves and everything we did just because casteism exists in our midst!
suderman thinks there is nothing to be proud of our cultural heritage..apparently theivery, caste, sati, etc etc was all that indians did or practised!
no britisher disowns and or makes fun of shakespeare (just some name) because the bard lived in an era where slavery was practised!
it is not entirely far fetched to say we have still carry the baggage of years of colonialism that has numbed indians totally that they refuse to see what is/was good in their culture and what is/was bad. everything gets clubbed with bad..everything becomes a myth..we downplay ourselves! so much negativism is no good!
and if i say this, i would probably be clubbed with the “hindu right” because although they have their own ulterior motives and i dont subscribe to that, they do raise some valid points. right thoughts can sometimes come from wrong people as well!
varun
(oh btw, abdul kalam would definitely agree with this! even he will say be proud of your heritage!)
Nothing to do with this post… but “Nayagan, Sarkar stand on their own” was like watching Godfather II – wonderful alternating juxtaposition of 3 movies!!
Dear Suderman,
Regarding your Lord Labakdas quote,
Iam not saying everything is correct.Just like if there is a cataract to eye we will remove the just the cataract not the eyes.Similarly over the years some bad things have crept in.In your very state few hundred years back sankara gave a good philosophy.I don’t thing it is just like that they came up with something.So there is some value behind out culture our duty is find out the truth behind this.I don’t blame you for this kind of misconception because we have brought up with so called european scholars view on indian culture.
Just my 2 cents
there u go! you can not stand criticism. 🙂
VEE
varun/ VEE/ assorted nitpickers:
i at no point said everything is wrong abt our culture. nor did i say we have to disown everything abt the heritage.
my post has only been about the blind practices that we have been proud of.
and how closed our minds have been!
read my post again in case it found troubled getting into your already full-head! empty a lil, re-fill with the changing times… that’s all I ask!
hari,
u missed the point too.
my post aint abt whether we shd be proud of our heritage or not…of course there are many things to be proud of…
but my post is about my regret and disillusionment that some practices that we should not be proud of are still celebrated!
and we still are fiercely protective about these things completely ignoring what is wrong…
we’ve always known what is right…enuff has been said, glorified about what is good about us… But everytime someone points out something wrong, we tend to take refuge under the greatness of our culture and heritage, completely ignoring arguments.
This is what I mean by saying that our minds should be open!
VEE:
i have a policy not to take criticism from dumbfucks and dickheads!
all anonymous pricks are just that!
🙂
how seriously can u take a faceless clown after all?
harish:
thanks!
my entire off day went on watching nayagan and godfather for the nth time, just for the story! 🙂
seen sarkar twice already… there’s so much to learn from every movie… If not what to do, at least what not to do. 🙂
wookie:
true, the origin is of academic interest only…
but there are things we must learn from our mistakes in the past…
even today, people are so fanatical about “our culture” that they are closed to anything that changes it… they immediately label it “european” or “american”… even our most tech savvy educated people who use the net, which is what disappoints me!
suderman says
u missed the point too.
my post aint abt whether we shd be proud of our heritage or not…of course there are many things to be proud of…
but my post is about my regret and disillusionment that some practices that we should not be proud of are still celebrated!
and we still are fiercely protective about these things completely ignoring what is wrong…
we’ve always known what is right…enuff has been said, glorified about what is good about us… But everytime someone points out something wrong, we tend to take refuge under the greatness of our culture and heritage, completely ignoring arguments.
This is what I mean by saying that our minds should be open!
i say:
keep your mind open is what i say too..
i dont see you writing any post telling what’s good about our culture…or did u? now, if you did that i would think you are more balanced…
you are quick to pounce on something negative…link to entire indian culture and write an article saying that everything is wrong with our culture..
i dont see you having written anything positive…all that u say is somewhere here in the comments “of course we know whats good abt our culture”..do you? why dont you write about it..so that we can make sure you are balanced?
i see more of a sarcasm than a genuine appreciation…
when u say “enuff has been said about our culture and glorified..”
the problem is you find something negative and u write an article out of it with sweeping generalizations and some random sentences like ‘religion is meant to unite people’ etc etc
and i think a lot of people, including myself are ashamed, and no one is shying or ignoring arguments..
there are a lot of things negative even today in our people..why point at ancestors…unscientific, sometimes stupid…
like say hero worship and complete idolization of rajnikanth that suderman himself practises…you think it’s a good sign that our youth waste money and time on someone like rajni who fakes everything on screen (all in the name of style)…why dont u realize that if u r blaming your ancestors of being proud of something that has no basis..what about this? rajni makes crores of rupees just because idiots like us will go crazy about any stupid thing he does..like pretending he is a world famous psychiatrist!!! he will defy laws of physics ..clap clap clap!! where did the brains go??
and i m not some nitpicker just ought to prove you are wrong..there are so many things u say in this blog that i will agree with!
varun
varun:
u’re barking the wrong tree. never did i say everything abt our culture was wrong! argument ends there. why wud i blog abt the already overhyped goodness of indian culture and values?? we all feel it when we go back to our respective homes. u can go back and read many other posts which are about feel good! this one wasnt for feeling good… this one was to make u see and feel the shit around…
so wat exactly is your problem?
varun:
on a lighter note..
waatha, thalaivar pathi thappa pesurae nee…
podaaaaaaaaaa… o*%@$@$%#$!%!
😀
Blogs are not exactly articles. They are like diary entries. They are straight from the heart. So they do not necessarily have to politically correct or reflective or any permanent standpoints.
Some days you are up, some days you are down…
But it is quite amusing to see people get worked up abt random thoughts expressed in blogs and type out emotional reactions calling for balance.
wat the f***!
i m sorry..cant find fault at all when someone says i say whatever i feel ..blogs are meant for that..guess i was wasting my time disputing what u said…there is really no point when someone tells “hey i will write what i feel, what’s your problem?”.
you might do away with the comments section in your blog..because we the readers know you are writing straight from your heart so no one can even say aloud “hey i have a problem here”.
and btw, (sorry for disputing) if you can blog about the overhyped defects in indian culture (there is so much negativism in press-both print and cyberspace is filled with negative aspects… you seriously think goodness is overhyped !!!??!!!)..you can blog about good things as well!
anyway i have no right to say that..you have EVERY right to blog whatever you feel..its your space..!
sorry for offering a different opinion. Truly regret it. I am all for free speech. (i thought i can also do that..thats all)
varun
guess sudhish himself wants to become like rajnikanth (am north indian so hardly know him) :). somewhere so he wants lots of fans through this. reason i am writing this is i found ur opinion on women highly offensive.
VEE
hindu rituals r over 1000 years old, and have remained unquestioned for that period, ppl have just been following them therefore they will contain some practises which are not very nice and backward like the discrimination in the temple beingonly for brahmins, therefore these need to be weeded out and rituals changed.
every generation rather than blindly following has to wuestion their religious practises, and undrstand them, retain the good ones and weed out the unwanted stuff.
i am happy to hear u say ull choose wat u want from religion, that freedom doesnt rest wit us i presume but is with the religious heads.
ya i agree that denying entry into garbagraha for non brahmins is wrong. but let me tell u that it does not happen in all temples and in all place. in our place(TN) not a single brahmin will open his mouth against a non brahmin, though he genuinely suffers. all because of this dravidian parties. u seem to be too genuine so as to forget the disgrace done to ur own community.
by the way what was the motive of ur post? to reveal how hypocratic and dominating brahmins are? (though on the safer side u opted to mention ur own community). what u followed reminded me of the dravidian parties age old formula. scolding our hindu religion, they themselves being hindus. that way they think they will avoid criticism.
is the thing which u r pointing out is applicable through out india? i bet it is not. brahmin dominating non brahmin is age old story and no one around u will believe or show interest even if someone cries continously. if at all there are some communal clashes, it is all because of other upper caste hindus and not because of brahmins.
Though denied equal opportunity in studies and govt jobs, they still comfortably place themselves in good position, all because of their own hardwork and that should be genuinely appreciated.
i bet u will never have the guts to point out some mistake of other communities or even abt muslims or christians. do not take advantage ur heritage(or ancestorhood to be right) to write something ill about it.